Today I hate people.
People who love me.
I hate them for loving me and making me love them in the first place. I hate using the word love, but nothing else seems to fit.
I hate people for not hating me, and not stopping me from missing them as terribly as I do.
I hate people for their geographic location.
Today I am selfish.
And girly.
Today I wish that I could never have met people, so as to have never been hurt by their leaving.
Life shouldn't change.
I hate fall. Because it represents change, and distance, distance from better times. Distance from you. The distance of time and the ocean.
I want to drown in my meloncholy.
I want to sleep forever and dream that you're beside me.
And then when I awake, my dreams will have come true.
I'll sleep forever, never say never, you wait and see.
Someday, I'll wake up and my eyes will open to you.